Bernice Saroni: I was wealthy but deeply depressed inside my mansion

USA-based Kenyan content creator Bernice Saroni has opened up about her painful struggle with depression, revealing that despite living a financially comfortable life, she was emotionally and mentally broken.

In a message shared on Facebook on Thursday, May 7, 2026, Saroni reflected on a period in her life when she appeared to have it all together on the outside, but was silently battling deep inner turmoil.

She revealed that at the time, she was married and living in what she described as a seemingly perfect setup, but emotionally, her home felt empty and cold despite being well-furnished and luxurious.

“Here I was, someone’s wife, very depressed. At 2 months of breastfeeding Junior, I didn’t even have milk because of stress. I even stayed with this hair for 5 months until the braids started falling down because mentally and emotionally I was completely exhausted,” she wrote.

According to her, she had millions in savings, her children were enrolled in international schools, and she employed several domestic workers, including house managers and a driver. She also ran multiple businesses, including a boutique, a hotel, and a butchery, portraying a highly successful lifestyle from the outside.

“I had millions in my savings account. My boys were in an international school. I had 3 house managers and a driver. I was a boss lady, I had a boutique, a hotel, and a butchery, and I was doing very well,” she added.

However, Saroni disclosed that behind the success and appearances, she was struggling with severe depression that left her emotionally exhausted and mentally drained. She noted that the condition affected her even physically, pointing out that stress had impacted her well-being during a period she was breastfeeding her child.

She also shared that her emotional state became so overwhelming that she lacked the energy to take care of herself, describing how even her personal appearance deteriorated as she battled inner pain.

Saroni emphasised that money and material success did not shield her from emotional suffering, stating that wealth alone is not enough to guarantee happiness or mental peace.

“But I was very depressed. My home was very cold… I was in a mansion that looked perfect and well furnished, but inside it was empty emotionally. Money is not everything. I sank into depression and very few people understood my pain. Everything looked perfect from outside, but inside I was breaking,” she added.

She further explained that her experience made her realise how easily people can suffer silently, even when their lives appear perfect from the outside, noting that very few people understood the depth of her struggle at the time.

The content creator also used her story to encourage women who may be going through similar emotional struggles, urging them to prioritise their mental health and seek help rather than suffer in silence.

She added that no pain lasts forever and expressed hope that those going through difficult moments should hold on, reminding them that better days eventually come.

“If you’re a woman suffering and feeling like you’re at the edge, even thinking death is the only way to end the pain, please remember, there is a God of the 11th hour, and no pain lasts forever. Babygirl, please take care of your mental health. Once you are deeply depressed, everything becomes vanity. Don’t think God has forgotten you. Look at me and get hope that your tomorrow shall be greater and brighter.  It has been God and me against the world… and somehow, I’m still standing,” she wrote.

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